[ Everything is fine, more than fine, even, until Noah's thoughts slip right into Matthew's mind like they belong there, and then he breaks the kiss with a soft sound of his own, almost a gasp. He's too simple, and it's too much. ]
Noah--
[ But he doesn't pull away; they're still so close, noses and foreheads touching, Matthew's hands holding Noah's face now like some precious thing. He doesn't want to leave either; to lose Noah, and this; to say goodbye to everyone he's met here and never see the Meadows again--but he doesn't think there's anything he can do to stop it. If Ronan leaves again, Matthew will fall asleep. That's what happens. It makes something in his chest clench, thinking about it while Noah's thoughts are still echoing in his head. ]
I wish--
[ Right now, every little part of him wants to promise that he won't leave again, but it wouldn't be a promise he can keep. It could be a lie. ]
I wish I could do something, [ he says instead, as earnest as he is helpless, his eyes falling closed again as his thumb traces a tender line along Noah's jaw. ]
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Noah--
[ But he doesn't pull away; they're still so close, noses and foreheads touching, Matthew's hands holding Noah's face now like some precious thing. He doesn't want to leave either; to lose Noah, and this; to say goodbye to everyone he's met here and never see the Meadows again--but he doesn't think there's anything he can do to stop it. If Ronan leaves again, Matthew will fall asleep. That's what happens. It makes something in his chest clench, thinking about it while Noah's thoughts are still echoing in his head. ]
I wish--
[ Right now, every little part of him wants to promise that he won't leave again, but it wouldn't be a promise he can keep. It could be a lie. ]
I wish I could do something, [ he says instead, as earnest as he is helpless, his eyes falling closed again as his thumb traces a tender line along Noah's jaw. ]