[ Matthew takes a breath and lifts his gaze back up to Noah, his blue eyes vulnerable and free of pretense. ]
I know. [ Of course Noah wouldn't want that. But it hurts anyway. Matthew tries very hard to steer his thoughts away from what he's lost, but some nights he catches himself wondering how it's even possible, that they could have been so happy then and now Noah doesn't want him-- them anymore. ]
I didn't want to leave.
[ He's said as much before. What he really means is that he wanted more, a part of him still wants more, than a few months of being Noah's boyfriend, but he can't say those words out loud. ]
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I know. [ Of course Noah wouldn't want that. But it hurts anyway. Matthew tries very hard to steer his thoughts away from what he's lost, but some nights he catches himself wondering how it's even possible, that they could have been so happy then and now Noah doesn't want him-- them anymore. ]
I didn't want to leave.
[ He's said as much before. What he really means is that he wanted more, a part of him still wants more, than a few months of being Noah's boyfriend, but he can't say those words out loud. ]