[ Matthew drops his head forward in relief, and when he lifts it again, there's a small but warm smile on his face. ]

It'd only make me sad if you didn't want me to anymore.

[ He honestly has no idea what he would have done if Noah'd said no. Now that Matthew loves him, he doesn't think he can turn it off again. He thought at first it might happen on its own, that his love would fade until his and Noah's feelings lined up naturally again, but that's not how it's going. And now he's glad; he's not sure he's quite ready to let go of this change in himself that made him more than what he used to be. ]

I don't want to pretend it never happened, or-- or anything like that. If it's okay. [ His heart is still so full. No matter what happens from now on, Noah gave him that. ] I think us dating was sort of a miracle. [ Wait, does that sound silly? He shakes his head, and continues with characteristic Matthew Lynch earnestness. ] I just have to-- figure out how it all works now.