[Matthew's hand does it's job, grounding him back into solidity. His eyes blink, still shaded with guilt, but also wet with relief and hope.
He understands. Matthew understands. He's sad, and that was always going to be the case, but they haven't lost each other.]
Yes.
[Noah nods, barely even pausing to think about it. Anything Matthew wants, anything he's comfortable with. He's made both of and for love - how could anyone ask him to change?]
[ Matthew drops his head forward in relief, and when he lifts it again, there's a small but warm smile on his face. ]
It'd only make me sad if you didn't want me to anymore.
[ He honestly has no idea what he would have done if Noah'd said no. Now that Matthew loves him, he doesn't think he can turn it off again. He thought at first it might happen on its own, that his love would fade until his and Noah's feelings lined up naturally again, but that's not how it's going. And now he's glad; he's not sure he's quite ready to let go of this change in himself that made him more than what he used to be. ]
I don't want to pretend it never happened, or-- or anything like that. If it's okay. [ His heart is still so full. No matter what happens from now on, Noah gave him that. ] I think us dating was sort of a miracle. [ Wait, does that sound silly? He shakes his head, and continues with characteristic Matthew Lynch earnestness. ] I just have to-- figure out how it all works now.
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He understands. Matthew understands. He's sad, and that was always going to be the case, but they haven't lost each other.]
Yes.
[Noah nods, barely even pausing to think about it. Anything Matthew wants, anything he's comfortable with. He's made both of and for love - how could anyone ask him to change?]
As long as it doesn't make you sadder.
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It'd only make me sad if you didn't want me to anymore.
[ He honestly has no idea what he would have done if Noah'd said no. Now that Matthew loves him, he doesn't think he can turn it off again. He thought at first it might happen on its own, that his love would fade until his and Noah's feelings lined up naturally again, but that's not how it's going. And now he's glad; he's not sure he's quite ready to let go of this change in himself that made him more than what he used to be. ]
I don't want to pretend it never happened, or-- or anything like that. If it's okay. [ His heart is still so full. No matter what happens from now on, Noah gave him that. ] I think us dating was sort of a miracle. [ Wait, does that sound silly? He shakes his head, and continues with characteristic Matthew Lynch earnestness. ] I just have to-- figure out how it all works now.